Kelbert

Ella

She get’s spayed tomorrow. Pray!

Grace

08.05.10

I had the greatest night tonight! It began with watching my roommate, Symon, play tonight at In The Raw, a local Sushi restaurant here in Tulsa. But! It ended with Josh and I going to a local coffee shop, Shades of Brown, and there was a little jazz quartet  that played. Now let me set this up. There was an older white guy playing a 1967 Martin, and older black lady doing the vocals, some young college looking kid playing bass and an older guy sitting on a box playing something just to make noise to keep the rhythm! And I loved it! Every minute of it. Now don’t get me wrong. They were no where near the tightest group or most perfect group I’ve heard. In all actuality, they were kind of bad. But it was the best bad I’ve ever heard. I mean, one could tell they just loved to make music and sing and make people smile. They sat at a table with their jazz fake book and just went at it. Man I really enjoyed it. I can’t wait to get back there in a couple of weeks to see them again. I’ll try to post a little video I took of them.

It’s so amazing to me the little things that I run upon that just create an amazing moment in my life. And these moments are so unexpected. I remember when I heard Symon sing for the first time, it was a moment that I will never forget. Those two songs I heard will always stay with me. And tonight, the joy I saw on that ladies face when she sang… I can’t help but wonder what her story is. Maybe someday I’ll ask her. I’m just so satisfied right now. Sitting here in my home watching an old West Wing Episode while the dog is chillin on the floor. And thinking about the lady who sang “How High The Moon” at Shades of Brown. I love it when nights like this happen!

04.05.10

Well here goes another day. I don’t have a lot to say tonight. Mostly because I’ve waited to late to write and I’m now sleepy. That means tomorrow will be full of good chat. I have been thinking about the present day ministry of the Holy Spirit. He looks a lot like He did when Jesus of Nazareth walked the earth. You want to know why? Because Jesus is still walking the earth and the Holy Spirit is still resting on the sons of God. He’s walking through you and me and the same Spirit is upon me and upon you. You should really think about that for a while. It will move you to action. I promise.

Grace 

03.05.10

So. I missed a day. And actually I’m writing on what’s technically the 4th but in my heart it’s the 3rd! And what a 3rd day of May it’s been. See, I have a dog whose name is Ella. We spent most of the day together. Great for her. Not so much for me. I guess I should say some parts were great but today the bad outweighed the good. But God, as He so wisely does, turned the bad into good. 

Since having this dog, I’ve discovered this bit of rage in me that likes to manifest when my dog is disobedient. Today was the apex of that rage. I found myself running around my yard for approximately 30 minutes trying to catch a dog who’s much faster than I am and apparently quite a bit smarter than I was at that moment. The chase finally ended with me entering my house and slamming the door behind me while leaving Ella in the yard feeling as if she’s victorious. Little did she know that when she did feel it necessary to enter the house again, I would be waiting with a beating that would hopefully provoke fear as well as reverence in her. And that’s exactly what happened. That poor dog didn’t know her front from her back when I was done. 

But what happened afterwards was the beginning of the wisdom of God in operation. Within seconds of our little episode my dog, Ella, came to me, with ears pulled back in submission, to receive love from me and to show me that she still knew she could find love from me towards her. I gave in for a bit. But I had so much rage in me that I could hardly love this girl yet I knew in my heart that I really did love her. 

I’m sure you may be wondering where I’m going with all this. There are so many lessons I learned today from being with Ella but I’ll highlight this one. I found it so strange that I couldn’t shake my anger. I knew it wasn’t right for me to be so angry and especially that angry towards an animal. I knew there was more to this than my eye could see. I left her alone at the house and went out to get a bite to eat. While driving I thought of all the husbands who come home and display these fits of rage on family’s that usually don’t deserve it. These same family’s constantly respond as Ella did to me. They come to those husbands and fathers to be loved even though rage was just displayed. They know their is love somewhere to be found in the heart of that man. 

I also found myself thinking about my present state of mind and being. Why was I so angry? How could I change my attitude? I found myself responding to my roommate, who came home after all of this transpired, in the same way that I just described. I found myself not wanting to talk to him and wanting to be left alone with my anger. All the while he’s just wanting a nice conversation and he’s totally unaware of my present state. I knew this had to be dealt with. I went to my room and there waiting for me was the wisdom and grace of God. I felt a small tugging in my heart to return to music that had a habit of making me happy. For me this was gospel. For so long I would listen to certain gospel songs and would be so overcome with joy and excitement. I realized that I hadn’t listen to many of these songs in years. As I heard those songs again today that same joy attended to me that met me so many years ago. I began to realize that I was carrying so much anxiety having to do with the cares of life that it began to weigh me down and affect my joy. In Christ I had and have many reasons for rejoicing but I traded them all for the thoughts of the cares of life. In exchange I received anger and rage. Today that all changed. He made me smile again. He inhabited my praise. He became my peace all over again and for that I’m so thankful. I have more to say along these lines. Maybe tomorrow. For now may I encourage you to consider Him who is faithful. Listen to a good song or two and let Him turn your mourning into dancing, your anger into joy. May the words of your mouth and thoughts from your mind be forever fixed on He who is Truth. Praise our God.

Grace

01.05.10

It’s the 5th month of the year and I’m evaluating. At times that’s a good thing. Occasionally it can lead to despair. I’ll endeavor to not let that happen. This year has been a most interesting year thus far. It seems like everything that I’m putting my hand to is something that’s totally new or not quite fully developed. I’ll share a few of the things that I’m doing or trying to begin.

I have a house church that meets on Thursday nights at 7:30 at my house. This has been going on for a couple of years now but there’s something in me that tells me that’s it’s to take on a different look in the near future. I’m not sure what that fully looks like. That’s been the problem as of late. Well at least it’s a problem from my prospective. I don’t fully know what much looks like these days. I just seem to know what is to be. How to get there has proven to be quite a challenge.

Another thing that’s been new for me is becoming a Realtor. I got my license back in September. I haven’t done anything with it since then. I’m not sure what the deal is there. Well that’s not fully true. I’m probably dropping the ball in getting this business started. God, be my strength. I don’t have anymore. 

I also have a dog. Ella-Fitz. That’s a blog all to itself. I can’t even began to explain how that’s change the dynamics of my life as well as my house hold. More on that later.

I also feel like it’s time to start CIty Worship again. For those that might now know, CW was a night of worship that was held every Friday night for 4 years. We invited different worship leaders each Friday night to come lead. It really was a beautiful thing to see different groups come together each week to worship Jesus. I really miss that. I’m glad that it seems like it may be back in some form. 

I’m helping my roommate, Symon, get some of his songs recorded and out in the ethers. People really need to hear these songs. They are some of the most beautiful expressions of worship I’ve heard a man render to God. I borrow the expressions for my own times with my Lord. We want to record more this summer. Keep eyes and ears open. 

Finally, I’ve felt the leading of God to have a corporate gathering on Sunday nights. It’s something that has come out of the Thursday night House Church group. As of now we meet at my house at 7p. To be honest with you, this has been the biggest challenge in my soul these last months. It seems right and good but it hasn’t really taken shape the way I’ve seen it in my heart. I know there’s something there and I’ll continue to contend and obey. God’s faithful and this is His work. All of these things that I’m involved with in Tulsa OK are the work of God and I will let Him do His work and I’ll obey. I will obey. 

That’s enough for now. I think this will be good this month. Keep checking back. There will be some type of blog, video or written, everyday this month. Give me some feedback. 

Grace

The Month of May

I’m blogging or video blogging every day.